tropical!

I'm in love with the beauty of the island and the purity of the sea. I promise I will come back again. In the night, I could feel the wind is breezing gracefully, the sound of the water that hit the sea shore, I felt peace in me. Nobody can make me feel better than that. Really, the awesome scenery is tickling around me and makes my guitly feeling fade away! And in the morning, I can feel the fresh air, the birds are singing and...the sun rise. I'M IN LOVE♥♥♥♥♥

I'm taking one step backward just to make sure I'm not already in too deep. I'm afraid of losing so do afraid of loving. I'm not ready and I never be. God please take him faraway from me. I don't want to be close with him. Did I do something wrong? Is this something that I deserve? I need answers in every questions. I can't stand pain, I swear I can't